but i'll still love you forever.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Well, the semsetral exams are all over.
Holidays are here.
Theoritically I should be happy.
But what's this sick feeling..This overwhelming feeling....
Rights..I just remembered...something happened.......
Let's not talk about materialistic money.
Pop music is trash to some of our ears but not to the rest.
"you can't bboy to jap anime music"
If it is directed to everyone...
I remember Munky told me that to listen to more breakbeats and grab the beat, toprock to the groove. He aint psycho-ing me to discard pop music, espicially japanese pop/anime music, just wanted me to get the flow, fizzo got flow.
We all have our own likes and you can't force me to do what you like, neither can I force you to do what I like.
If it is directed to me...
Cannot break to anime music you say...Not true bro, there are J-Rap and Beats, some are even featured as anime openings/endings songs. If not what kind of breakbeats do japanese bboys break to??? English R&B??? No way, frankly, their english is limited to primary school english but much better than the flammer in TG blog.
Honestly, stop feeling inferior to everyone. You have your good stuffs too. Your english language is way more powerful than my geeky science and you can endure more pain than me.
Kip-ups, worm, roll back elbow, coffee grinder...These are cool moves that you can do but I can't...Not to mention how to fall nicely and the DAMN baby freeze.
If I have had your mindset, I'd be emoing big-time.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Ok, for once I can say I hate Tehhhh Pearrrr.Of all the times, they arranged it to be after CNY.How can study?!1st and 2nd day go bai nian, subsequence days also need to go bai nian, liao yu sheng, etc.Where got time?!(pardon the singlish portions)You got no time...You got no time...You got no time...No time...No time...No time...Rewind...Rewind...Rewind...Sigh..... Confirm no time to revise...How I wish time is like your cashcard for the IU reader. No money, top up...No time, rewind...Wake up and smell the fragrance of the meadow.Feel the warmth of the sun,the softness of the grass.Hear the songs of the chirpping birds.Tingle as the gentle breeze floats pass your face.So open up your eyes,And take another look no matter where you are.You promised me it's going to be ok,You promised me no one's getting hurt,You promised me we'll go back together.I promised you I'll protect you,I'll not let you get hurt,I'll not let you die...So don't say..Don't say it's too late......
Thursday, February 15, 2007

Kingdom Hearts 2 - Oathkeeper Keyblade
Looks very crappy right???
Today.. or rather yesterday was the worst day I had endured...First-off, early in the morning, 12am, some bugger send me a MSN auto spamming application file and my MSN was spamming like there is no tomorrow....Second, I slept during the bus ride to school, only to wake up at 8.55am and found out that the bus had aready drove pass the Airport Control tower......Moreover, I had a CSAS presentation at 9am. At wits end, I had to take a $12 cab back...OUCH!!!!Third, I totally screwed up my last HPI tutorial quiz. Damn It!Fourth, Red light showned....(Nic, your traffic light theory)It can happen to anyone of us,Anyone you think of.Anyone can fall,Anyone can hurt someone they love.Hearts will break,Cause I made a stupid mistake....stupid mistake....Fifth, TG was asked to perform for the HIHS Valentine performance . At that critical moment, my left calf crammed... -_-"My freestlye also suck...CMI...Really Cannot Make It......Sixth, after the "performance", I'm so freaking tired and did not even revise my work. The water tech notes were in front of me but nothing went in........Seventh, I had to spend about 2 hours time, just to cut and paste the water tech project thingy. As in really cut paper and paste paper.....................................The only good thing that occured is that I recieved my Kingdom Hearts 2 Oathkeeper Keyblade pendant, which looked very nice from far. When close up, it looked like s**t, I'm so disappointed.SIGH.........................I hate yesterday, infected with bad luck viruses......maybe I should get the clover pendant from Gift a Name for good luck.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Warning...Emo ahead..................People involved don't take it by heart.......
Just let me burst out for now.
Commitment means to pledge to some thing or someone.
Passion is the emotion of feeling very strongly about a subject.
(Extracted from English Wikipedia)
Commitment, we all wanted to see it in ourselves. When we form this team, when we scout for new-blood we all wanted commitment, but commitment is different from passion.
I too am commited to the team, we are in it together. I've pledge myself to be part of it. Yet even if we are commited to this team, our passion maybe very different.
My thirst for it is not as intense as you guys, so as my passion for it. None the less, a fraction of my passion still support my commitment for it.
I'm not ashame to say that I didn't train at home. My sedentary lifestyle is the reason. It's nightmarish claws are gripping on me, digging deep into my heart, rendering my escape useless.The more I tried to escape, the more it drained my mental strength.
"To be frank, you're the one lagging behind", "Train at home", "accomodate the floor, not the floor accomodate you", "be more flexible", "there will be one point when you have nothing to learn in terms of (6)(15)(15)(20)(23)(15)(17)(11)".
You guys told me all these........
I know you all want me to improve and I understand that.
I know we are a team and we are suppose to improve together, but at what rate?????
It all boils down to our true personal aim of joining the team. I don't know about you guys, however my true aim of (2)(18)(5)(1)(11)(9)(14)(7) is just to learn at my comfort pace and have fun. You guys can say I'm selfish, that's the way I am.
Signing up for dance compitition......Battle for fame and glory ain't in my mind.
I still remember that freakishly long period of time when I couldn't get my basics right and I practically emoed through the sessions. Yes, you can say it's because you never train at home. I know that...Yet I never fail to miss a single session. Reason - Commitment+passion.
Discipline is another key factor, it's what I lack and you guys have tonnes of them. Not to brag but did you guys ever notice, for all the weekly training(sundays), you all have at least missed one session but I had miss none.(no offence)
I know I am not disciplined enough to train at home, so I force myself to go training by hook or by crook.
I really don't know about you guys but if I'm a burden to the team, then I will leave the main 6 and be the benchwarmer....then again, we are the main 6 because we regularly attend the training sessions - Commitment, not passion.
Lately, emoing have been popular among us and its the root problem to our shaky team.
You people have emoed enough, now its my turn.
"I was kinda jealous of you...but i changed that to motivation......." like real...I lied just to calm the team down when tensions flared during that time. Some of you are fueled by passion and did extra intensive training. Some of you didn't do intensive but still did train at home. Yet this actually caused the flaring tensions that time.
"You're the only one who can do double direction..." you lied.... anyone can do it, its only the matter of not getting confuse.
"I'll go crazy without sunday training" true to some extend...........
I don't know how many time I've lied just to keep this team from breaking up. Sometimes I really feel there's no sense in doing that just to keep a team that tense up so easily.
Majority of my passion is still devoted to anime and manga.
I am not you guys, Boku wa ZENCROIX desu. I'll never be you people and walk on your paths.
I'll walk my path, the path of footwork and floor, the path of pure learning, the path without battle for fame, glory and most certainly, the path of my pace. How passionate I feel about break is my own problem........................
And I've just recieved a message that tomorrow's training's cancelled.....WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, February 04, 2007
DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't know what happened......
My comp's getting all secured... all the stupid certificate error..... all the warning messages....
And the stupid Windows Live messanger keeping giving the the SIGN IN error - ERROR CODE 80048820
What The HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Screw the NETWORK