but i'll still love you forever. Warning...Emo ahead..................People involved don't take it by heart.......
Just let me burst out for now.

Commitment means to pledge to some thing or someone.
Passion is the emotion of feeling very strongly about a subject.
(Extracted from English Wikipedia)

Commitment, we all wanted to see it in ourselves. When we form this team, when we scout for new-blood we all wanted commitment, but commitment is different from passion.
I too am commited to the team, we are in it together. I've pledge myself to be part of it. Yet even if we are commited to this team, our passion maybe very different.
My thirst for it is not as intense as you guys, so as my passion for it. None the less, a fraction of my passion still support my commitment for it.
I'm not ashame to say that I didn't train at home. My sedentary lifestyle is the reason. It's nightmarish claws are gripping on me, digging deep into my heart, rendering my escape useless.The more I tried to escape, the more it drained my mental strength.

"To be frank, you're the one lagging behind", "Train at home", "accomodate the floor, not the floor accomodate you", "be more flexible", "there will be one point when you have nothing to learn in terms of (6)(15)(15)(20)(23)(15)(17)(11)".
You guys told me all these........
I know you all want me to improve and I understand that.
I know we are a team and we are suppose to improve together, but at what rate?????
It all boils down to our true personal aim of joining the team. I don't know about you guys, however my true aim of (2)(18)(5)(1)(11)(9)(14)(7) is just to learn at my comfort pace and have fun. You guys can say I'm selfish, that's the way I am.
Signing up for dance compitition......Battle for fame and glory ain't in my mind.
I still remember that freakishly long period of time when I couldn't get my basics right and I practically emoed through the sessions. Yes, you can say it's because you never train at home. I know that...Yet I never fail to miss a single session. Reason - Commitment+passion.
Discipline is another key factor, it's what I lack and you guys have tonnes of them. Not to brag but did you guys ever notice, for all the weekly training(sundays), you all have at least missed one session but I had miss none.(no offence)
I know I am not disciplined enough to train at home, so I force myself to go training by hook or by crook.
I really don't know about you guys but if I'm a burden to the team, then I will leave the main 6 and be the benchwarmer....then again, we are the main 6 because we regularly attend the training sessions - Commitment, not passion.
Lately, emoing have been popular among us and its the root problem to our shaky team.
You people have emoed enough, now its my turn.
"I was kinda jealous of you...but i changed that to motivation......." like real...I lied just to calm the team down when tensions flared during that time. Some of you are fueled by passion and did extra intensive training. Some of you didn't do intensive but still did train at home. Yet this actually caused the flaring tensions that time.
"You're the only one who can do double direction..." you lied.... anyone can do it, its only the matter of not getting confuse.
"I'll go crazy without sunday training" true to some extend...........
I don't know how many time I've lied just to keep this team from breaking up. Sometimes I really feel there's no sense in doing that just to keep a team that tense up so easily.
Majority of my passion is still devoted to anime and manga.
I am not you guys, Boku wa ZENCROIX desu. I'll never be you people and walk on your paths.
I'll walk my path, the path of footwork and floor, the path of pure learning, the path without battle for fame, glory and most certainly, the path of my pace. How passionate I feel about break is my own problem........................
And I've just recieved a message that tomorrow's training's cancelled.....WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kuroshin Toya
Zen
Croix
17 going on 18
5 August 1989
Leo - "every thing's peachy" attitude. Loves music. Daydreamer. BIG imagination. Curious. Observant. Careful&Cautious. Hates not being trusted. Stubborn. No self control. Easily distracted. VERY revengeful
TP - AG14, TG01/03(2nd Yr)
Daily Dreamer, Craps 4 Living
Suffering form STM
Jack Of ALL Trades, Master of None
Lacks Courage n Guts
Never play/watch horror media
Email - nakochan_89@hotmail.com

Truth-Seekers

Erin - Gambit RECKONERS Theory-G
Nic - Permission RECKONERS Theory-G
Selwyn - Munky Theory-G
Wilson - Androidz Theory-G
Ivan - Theory-G
Theory-G - Breakers Crib
Desmond - bTs-NOTSombody
Joshua
Rac
Rowen - Kantou
Yonglin - Zai
Ya Zhi
Fang Ying
Shi Hui
Shu Hui
Sam - n3o
Hui Bin - Leo Boy
Ping Chong
Seok Chin
Victor - Batman (Xanga)
Victor - Batman (Blogspot)
Chit Ming - Sly
Nigel
William
Eugene - AG13
Eric - AG14
Ester - AG14
Charles - AG14
Justina - AG14
Zhao Rong - AG14
Hui Min - AG14
Li Wei - AF13
Aaron - AF13
Alden - AF12
Kazuki - Manga Class
Kazuki - Manga Class
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Cherish

Family
Creative MUVO TXFM 512mb & Nokia 6670
Model Kits - X10A Freedom & Wing Zero Custom
Percious Experiences with all my friends espically all HIHS Buddies

Wishes

Diploma With Merits and Prizes... Promise Made to Fulfill
Ultimate Wall Life-gain Deck and Shizo, Bringer of Death and Rebirth Deck
Draw Manga Characters like Watase Yuu's Standard
Own a pair of ATs, and ride on the road of air - Wing Road
Find the Special Person
Master Break Moves
Get Tidus(FFX)/Chrno(Chrno Crusade)/Takuto(Full Moon wo Sagashite) Hairstlye

Favourites

Anime and Manga
Music - ENGLISH/MANDO/J/K POP, Love Songs n Songs from Anime/Games
Manga Drawing - Advance XP
Breakdance - BBOYING Theory-G
Food XP
Cooking n Creating new recipies for Food n Drinks
RECKONERS - Wall-Maker MTG

Hates

Betrayers
People who crap with purpose to hurt others
Gamers who Flame/Swear/KS/PK
PPL who misunderstand and put the blame on the misunderstooded
Losing a fight(any fight, Physical or Psycholgical)

Breakdance Moves

Shuffle in Single and Multiple
Handstand
2-Steps
3-Steps
4-Steps
5-Steps in CCW and CW
6-Steps in CCW and CW
7-Steps in CCW and CW
8-Steps in CCW and CW
9-Steps
10-Stpes
12-Steps
Toprock
Hand-Glide Freeze
Perfecting - Shuffle, Footwork varies, Hand-glide Freeze
Learning - Elbow plant, Shoulder Freeze
Finding - Style in Toprocks and Footworks
Aim - Ace in Creative Footwork, Jack-Hammers, Crickets

Memories

October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007

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Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
and if I ever need someone I'd come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can't see the shore